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Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Swirls, scribbles, and scratch-outs

Today is a day I wish I could just put swirls, scribbles, and scratch-outs on my blog.

Take 1: commentary on my African proverb of the day- "If you keep your head and heart going in the right direction, you won't have to worry about your feet."  I agree.  Sort of, but only sort of, because my head and heart don't also go in the same direction.  Not ready to write about that one.

commentary on my African proverb of the day- "If you keep your head and heart going in the right direction, you won't have to worry about your feet."

Take 2: commentary on a passage in Bruce Feiler's Abraham about following the Call.  I'm trying to follow the Call, but I've written about that before and I'm not sure I have new insights formed well enough to add anything useful to what I've already written.

commentary on a passage in Bruce Feiler's Abraham about following the Call.

My mind is going from head vs. heart vs. feet to how it relates to my Call to my wonderful day subbing in music classes to news about more bombings in Gaza to Syria and Turkey and Iraq and Iran, what I saw and heard when I was in Kurdistan and what will happen if violence escalates there to what was my plane crash dream about? Swirls and scribbles and scratch-outs.

Should I even be writing on a day like today when I can't seem to focus on any one thing long enough to write a post?  Maybe not, but in the interest of fostering discipline, I am writing.  Maybe it's OK to have a stream of consciousness post every once in awhile.  Today would be it.  

Maybe the message today is to let the thoughts evolve at their own pace the way a child's scribbles and swirls develop into recognizable figures over time or maybe the message is to forgive myself for the scratch-outs because everyone has scratch-out moments, days, weeks, even years. Maybe I'll also forgive myself for all the run-on sentences - they look the way my mind feels today.

Sometimes what we need is a chance to get the scribbles, swirls, and scratch-outs out of our system, so that next time we can take a clean piece of paper, re-focus, and start over. Here's hoping for a better next time. 

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